Remembering

Thinking of my Dad...his birthday is tomorrow. There's still a gaping hole that can't be patched up no matter how many times I try to mend it, looking at these photos rips it wide open again.

“In time, in time they tell me, I'll not feel so bad. I don't want time to heal me. There's a reason I'm like this.
I want time to set me ugly and knotted with loss of you, marking me. I won't smooth you away.
I can't say goodbye.” ― China Miéville, The Scar