About a week ago, David and I took a walk to Barnes and Noble. I was walking by one of the display tables, looked down and saw this book. One copy. I swear that it jumped into my hands. I was drawn in not only by the yummy, luscious artwork but also by the title, "A Field Guide to NOW." I've been savoring it for the last few days, ignoring the pile of grief books that are waiting for me and focusing my energy on Christina's book.
The past three months have been difficult. The moments seem to balance each other out: happy, sad, quiet, confused, thoughtful, lost, etc... I'm trying to find my way as there seems to be a "Before June 9th" and an "After June 9th" Kelly now. I can't explain it. There just is. I accept that. So, I focus on the daily moments that make me smile and open myself up and try to be gentle to the ones that weigh me down. It's all a balancing act.
I'm always asking questions. I don't necessarily need to hear or know the answers but it's nice when I find out that I'm not alone in the asking. This book is a good companion in my life at the moment and I'm thankful that it was sitting in the right spot at the right time.