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Thursday, August 16, 2012

Thoughts on Journaling Grief

Lianne asked me about my thought process as I journal my way through the last couple of months. It hasn't been any different than the way that I usually work except that there are certain things that I keep thinking about again and again and no amount of writing them down will ever make them go away or get out of my head. Things you wish you had said and things you wish you had done. Things you had no control over and things you'll never be able to change. Such is life.

I tend to treat my journal as a way to process and help me think and work through things. Yes, at times I use it as a dumping ground but the main reasons I journal are to process, document and explore. I figure that trying to work through my own grief in my books may help others (including my son who I plan on passing these books down to someday) as much as it helps me (in small ways.) I post my pages to encourage others to think about opening up in a journal...if I can do it, so can you.

I rarely sit down and plan anything out. I might have something in mind (based on a feeling or a thought) as I start to work on a page but rarely do I sit down and say, "I'm going to journal about this!" I start by working on a page, picking my background papers, colors, focal images and pens based on how I'm feeling as I make the page. Contrary to what some teachers say, I don't just "glue shit down". I'm picking out things that resonate and that have meaning to me. I tend to complete a page in one go, meaning I won't move onto the next page until I'm done with the one I'm working on at the moment.

When I go to pick up my pen, it's all about how I'm feeling and what I'm thinking right at that moment. Some days I have a lot to say (like the page above) and others it's minimal. I don't go back to my journals (usually) right away after I've finished them. I'll revisit them later (and usually it's much, much later.) I'm more "get it out and think through it as you work" though lately I seem to be revisiting the same thoughts and themes repeatedly. I know it's part of the grieving process and I'm just trying to process my thoughts, allow them to unfold and see where my journey takes me.


Cheryl said...

Occasionally I will "glue shit down" just to get if off my art table. Then I leave that page alone because I think it's ugly but I don't want to tear it out. Sometimes weeks later, I'll be working on something else with some other materials and I'll think that it goes 'perfectly' with that ugly page and I transform it. I don't like the term "glue shit down" but on the other hand, if it's on my desk then at some point I must have liked it enough to cut it out.

Sandy said...

You are very brave Kelly. I love that you journal from the heart. Tristan is one lucky young man to have you hand these books down to him. I'm sure he'll appreciate them as much as we enjoy looking at them. Thinking of you.

zouzou said...

Sorry I do not speak very well your language. But all that you say in your post is the same for me
generally the other persons have their page in her mind and work. I prefer carelessness (I don't know this word but my dictionary yes...)
my hands and after I see it's my
frame of mind who is on my page.
Thank you very much for give us your own remarks you help me very
much.Friendly zouzou.

Kelly Kilmer said...

Cheryl- :) I think though that there's a difference between "gluing any ol' random shit down and gluing down your own stuff that's collected in front of you. Stuff that you've obviously accumulated for some reason. ;) I just get annoyed when folks think that collage is anything goes and that it really is just gluing crap down when there's so much more to it... ;) I know you know what I mean. ;)

Thank you, Zouzou, for stopping by!

Thanks, Sandy. :)